but even the sun sets in paradise.

This was my day.



While it may not have been caused by a breakup, that was pretty much my headspace, all day.

So miserable all I wanted to do was go cry in a corner.

But see, last time I did that I ended up in Superwoman's office and she sent me home.

Which only made things worse.

So, I said screw it, pretended all was okay - like normal - put on a happy face and did my freakin' job.

See, Slim Shady and I had this pact.

And this was, of course, before she and Fearless Leader ditched me.

That if we turned into bitter, angry, complaining about everything employees that we would either shoot each other or quit.

I'm still debating.

I'm just tired of the drama.

Life would be so much easier on the farm.

And it wasn't just today, it's built up to this point. Today was just the breaking point.

See, I'm not good with change.

Yeah, big surprise, I'm sure.

But so many things are changing it's making my head spin.

And I know change is important and if we don't evolve then the library dies, but the routine is what makes me good at my job, it's the reason I love it.

Loved it.

It was actually amusing, I went to dinner with the boyfriend and all I kept repeating was "I'll love my job... tomorrow."

Because really, at this moment in time, I cannot think of a single thing keeping me there, aside from TAB.

And while that may sound dramatic, it's been a long time coming.

Multiplied exponentially by the fact that I DON'T HAVE ANYONE THERE ANYMORE.

I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my coworkers, they're great. Queen of the Known Universe especially, but it's not the same as having Slim Shady and Fearless Leader there.

But, like I said, tomorrow. I'll act like nothing's wrong, I'll find a reason to love my job again and everything will be just fine.

Unless something changes with TAB.

That is where I draw the line.

I care about those kids, I will advocate for them until the day I die, but if that changes then I'm done.

Speaking of TAB, the only good thing that happened during the workday was that our awesome webmaster - and also proud father of a TAB member - uploaded the Reader's Theater videos to our website, Facebook page and YouTube channel. I'll post the link on Facebook. I'm proud of those kids, they were excellent.

And then tonight after work was better. The boyfriend fixes all, as always. Went out to eat and then watched Enemy of the State.


I love Gene Hackman. Scale of Awesome puts it at around 8/10, was totally on the edge of my seat.

Am, it's running in the background now. He sent it home with me cause we didn't get all the way through it before he had to leave for work.

Jack Black, Seth Green and Jason Lee is serious roles, I'm in shock.

So far, so good. I'll let you know after I finish if that holds up.

Geez, already an hour in. I've drafted and re-drafted this post so many times I've lost count.

Had it playing on mute in the background 'til I'm done then I'll skip to where we left off.

Doesn't really matter, I'll probably delete it tomorrow anyway.

Just like all my other ranting ones.

So, I'll move on to the music. Aside from Miranda's which I sang all afternoon in my head, btw.

Where was I....Maroon 5's greatest hits, take 8? I think.

One more from Hands All Over and then moving on to their last album Overexposed.

Moves Like Jagger



One More Night



Payphone


saw all three of these live, they were fantastic. originally not a huge fan of payphone like i was immediately of the former two, however it's grown on me, especially cause the boyfriend sings it all the time.


How is it that Moms know when you're gonna have a bad day?

Came home to a box full of chocolate in the mail.

Awesome.

out!

Thoughts from my Nitrous-addled brain…plus the GCB

Apparently, if my six-year-old nephew can get cavities filled I can get cavities filled.

Or so said my mother in her pep talk on the way to the dentist this morning.

Made me feel semi-pathetic but it worked. I can get cavities filled. As long as there is nitrous involved.

Dude, that stuff is wicked awesome. And I was on it for over an hour so there were a lot of random thoughts that went through my mind.

Thoughts that came to mind while I was on Nitrous:

-Dude. What if like people didn’t have noses. That would suck. Then we’d always have to breathe through our mouths. And then if something happened to your mouth you couldn't breathe. And then you'd be dead. All cause you had no nose.

-Dude. If I flinch is he going to slice off my tongue?

-Dude. That freakin’ repurposing project is this week. How am I gonna finish all those crafts, pilfer a mass amount of withdrawn books, and act semi-crafty in front of the kids? Granted I’ve started on some but they are questionable. But that’s what Squirt and Mentor are for.

-Dude. How awful of an editor am I? I’ve had her stories for over two months and they’re still not finished. How did I used to have time to do all this stuff plus write my own before? Oh right, that was college. Who studied in college? Joe Studley doesn’t like it when I say I guessed or rambled about stuff and got a 4.0 for two semesters.

-Dude. I’m running out of time on my DVR. I need to watch some of those shows so I can delete them and add more.

-Dude. I have so many useless fact books checked out that I should probably make an attempt at reading. Or the one Wordie gave me. A year ago. That’s still sitting on my endtable. But I don’t read books I check out from the library. I think they’re a good idea, so I check them out. And then ultimately I get distracted. However, if I buy the book then I don’t have to worry about due dates or if I’m in the mood to read in this three week period. And then I read.

-Dude. I’m gonna take a monster nap after this.

-Dude. My freakin’ curtains have yet to be hung up in the living room. I hate napping in the light.

-Dude. How does this crap stay in your mouth? If I eat something is it gonna come out. I will puke. Or pass out. Or puke and then pass out.

-Dude. Puking and passing out is not pleasant.

There were a few more Dude’s, but I’ll move on, you get the point.

My dentist rocks. And my hygenist sits with me to make sure I don't pass out.
And they let me wear headphones. Though no singing, sorry Sensei. I was competent enough to control that.

And it wasn't so bad. I made them laugh when I told them my sibling's story. Basically Second Sister was like,
"why does the dentist pinch you when you have a cavity?" and my brother was like,
"that's not a pinch you idiot that's a shot."
and she didn't believe him so he said to keep her eyes open when she's there, then she saw the needle and hated my brother for that.

So after the joy that was nitrous and the fact that I couldn't feel anything or swallow anything for like hours I took a nap. It was wicked awesome. Except it's light out so I really need to hang up these curtains. They've been sitting on my foosball table for like a year.

After my wicked awesome nap with my cat I caught up on some DVR. I don't think he knows what to do when I'm home during the day. He just stares at me. Or bites me cause I'm on his couch.

Anyway, DVR. So I watched Missing. Fantastic. Ashley Judd is a badass. Which I don't think I've said since Double Jeopardy.

Caught up on Bones, it was very creepy at the beginning which was exciting cause it's always so comedic and that's a change of pace. Reminded me of the Gormagon episodes, which were awesome. But then this one ended randomly - it was like is this a cliffhanger or not? Cause I mean are they going to pursue him next episode or is this just another one of those they'll come back to later. There was no big moment at the end to explain. I wish it was a bigger cliffhanger, you know? Something that would make me start watching it live time again? It's not as exciting anymore now that they're finally together. Sorry, ramble-nation.

The GCB is fabulous. I'm in love with it already and there's only been two episodes. BUT IT'S SO FUNNY!

Leslie Bibb is great as ever it's good to see her back in a starring role, Kristin Chenowith is always fantastic, plus you throw in a bunch of other actresses that I know from all these other shows and it's like I KNOW YOU! But how the hell do I know you? Like the chick that plays Heather, took me until the second episode to realize what she was from. I just kept seeing her dancing and hanging out of a limo. And then it hit me, VEGAS VACATION!

Anyway, I love it because it's original and it has fantastic one-liners.

Here are a few of my favorites:

-My bible's in my other purse.

-Why would anyone in their right mind leave Dallas for southern California? We’ve got the same weather without the liberals!

-She’s a yo-yo’er, right now the yo is up.

-Oh darlin’ you were a bitch with teeth.

-You reap what you sow – that’s Texan for karma.

-Onward you christian soldier.

-Got a job at a booby bar. - think that's my favorite cause she says it so blase in her opening narrative

-My husband just died, I’m still mourning the bastard for god’s sake!

-...or I’m gonna move me and the kids to a refrigerator box under the interstate, understood?
-As long as it’s the I-20, nobody we know ever rides that road.

-God she’s such a Pharisee.
-Well, someone’s been reading her New Testament.
-No I just googled hypocrisy.

-You have two guns? Mother what are you afraid of?
-*pulls out a shotgun* Not a damn thing.

So yes, you should watch it. It's fantastic. And now I'm stoked for Scandal. Though it doesn't start until like Mid-April.

Alright, DVR is updated, homework is done and posted, tomorrow is 9-6 so I'm out!


"Moves Like Jagger" Maroon 5 feat. Christina Aguilera

awesome jam song.